Nobody fucken listens to me...
2002-10-13, 8:37 p.m.
I need someone to listen to me...
Need someone to fucken HEAR me....
Someone that doesn't charge me by the hour
And tell me they can't fix me
Because I'm determined to be broken...
Came from a broken home,
Broken hearts, broken families, broken bones...
Spewing out spoken word
Like some psychadelic psyhchiatric superglue
Upstaging myself with rhymes
I don't have time for...
It's this fucking cycle of being broken and patched and
Broken and patched
And searching in skeazy bars and coffee shops
For she who clutches the glue
The needle and thread
The key to my brain
The key to my... bed.
And let me tell you kids,
They ain't hard to find -
Girls that'll fuck you
And leave you behind,
Crying
on the side of the road
In the corner of some bar
In some jolting train
On some international plane
4000 miles from home...
And they don't fucking care
As long as they got what they were lookin' for.
30 minutes, 2, 5, 6, 7 hours
Of me, buried between their legs
So they can pick up the phone
And call their
husband, wife, girlfriend, boyfriend, mother,
And tell them that they're coming home
While I'm picking up my underwear
And my wallet,
Shoving them in my pockets
And silently slipping out the side door.
They always figure out I'm not what they're looking for.
Can't give them the comfortability
Of whoever they were with before.
Or they are fucken "straight"
Or they were fucken experimenting...
But if they'd listen to me for 2 fucken seconds
Between the squirmin' and the screamin'
They'd figure out
I know what the fuck I'm talkin about
That just because I sleep around
Don't mean I'm a whore...
I just don't know what the fuck
I'm lookin' for...
But nobody fucken' listens anymore...
They just shove my shit in my pockets,
And push my ass out the door
With lazy utterances of "i love you",
Hazy promises of "i'll call you"...
But they won't.
Until they get bored.
And I pretend I'm okay with that...
Pretend I'm okay in general...
But I'm not.
I'm a fucked up little girl,
Big pants, mop of curls.
Prostituting myself
for 3 minutes of someone's time...
Whoring myself
so someone will LOOK at me.
Wearing my sexuality like a t-shirt...
FUCKING SEE ME
FUCKING CALL ME
FUCKING KISS ME
HUG ME
LOVE ME
FUCK ME
I don't fucking care.
Just fucking hear me.
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